So, this is the first post on my new blog. I intend to use this page as a repository for my thoughts on a variety of subjects. It'll probably end up being part journal and part soapbox. I don't know if any of the topics I'll be tackling will be of interest to readers, but writing is therapeutic for me, so I'll just keep typing away...
Summer 2009 has been a trying time for me in many ways. For one thing, my parents are getting divorced. This process hasn't exactly made things easy on my brothers and I. We will be under a lot of financial strain that we wouldn't otherwise have been under. Overall though, I think it will work out for the best. Home had become a very toxic environment and a change was definitely needed. I know that God hates divorce, but I also know that he can use even the worst circumstances for our good.
I still love both of my parents. It's in the nature of relationships that if you are with someone long enough, they will wrong you or let you down in some way. To be honest, they have both hurt me deeply, but I haven't stopped caring for them. I'm not innocent either: I've disappointed and hurt them countless times before and yet they haven't written me off. At some point, I need to move beyond who is to blame and just get on with my life. That's what I intend to do.
In happier news, over the past few weeks, I've been getting closer to God. This isn't saying very much, though. My relationship with God has been very troubled for the past few years. I've had a lot of bitterness towards Christ's "servants" to work out and I haven't surrendered myself to His will in a long time. However, I have begun reading my Bible and attending church services again, and this has been a great help to me.
I've got a lot of issues to work through (I'm not going to bore anybody with them here), but I hope that God will use this time to make me a better person. Hopefully, rather than getting bitter or feeling sorry for myself, I will focus on the good and try to see the "bad" things in my life as opportunities instead of trials.
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